Halsey discusses pain of miscarriage, says the experience made her feel 'inadequate'
This article has been updated to better reflect Halsey's interview.
Halsey has opened up about the pain of miscarriage, describing the experience as making her feel “the most inadequate I’ve ever felt”.
The 24-year-old, who has endometriosis, had a miscarriage while performing on stage.
The ‘Without Me’ singer has previously discussed her experience, but in a new interview described how she found it “demoralising”, particularly when she received a backlash online after opening up about her miscarriage.
“It’s the most inadequate I’ve ever felt,” she told The Guardian. “Here I am achieving this out-of-control life, and I can’t do the one thing I’m biologically put on this earth to do.
“Then I have to go onstage and be this sex symbol of femininity and empowerment? It is demoralising.”
But, despite her reproductive health battles, Halsey says her latest prognosis is positive and she is therefore hopeful that motherhood is “looking like something that’s gonna happen for me. That’s a miracle.”
Read more: Beyonce learned to 'mother herself' after suffering multiple miscarriages
Halsey has previously spoken on ‘The Doctors’ in 2018 about the miscarriage that encouraged her to undergo surgery for her endometriosis and freeze her eggs.
Read more: James Van Der Beek and wife Kimberly open up about heartbreaking miscarriage
“I was on tour, and I found out I was pregnant. And before I could really figure out what that meant to me and what that meant for my future, for my career, for my life, for my relationship, the next thing I knew I was on stage miscarrying in the middle of my concert,” she shared.
“And the sensation of looking a couple hundred teenagers in the face while you’re bleeding through your clothes and still having to do the show, and realising in that moment that I never want to make that choice ever again of doing what I love or not being able to because of this disease.”
Halsey also revealed that despite her young age, she had decided to freeze her eggs due to concerns about future fertility.
Read more: Women share their miscarriage experiences after study reveals one in six suffer PTSD
What is endometriosis?
Endometriosis the growth of endometrial-like tissue (the lining of the womb/uterus) outside of the uterus.
It can lead to extreme pain and difficulty conceiving.
“Endometriosis is a condition which affects women usually around the age of 30 to 40,” Dr Diana Gall from Doctor-4-U previously told Yahoo UK.
“The uterus is lined with tissue known as endometrium, but in some women this tissue grows outside of the uterus on the ovaries and fallopian tubes causing painful symptoms which are sometimes chronic.
“When a woman menstruates, this lining breaks down and is discarded through a bleed, but if this tissue is on the outside of the womb there is nowhere to release the bleed.”
According to recent statistics from Endometriosis UK an estimated one in 10 women of reproductive age in the UK suffer from endometriosis.
And 10% of women worldwide, that’s 17 million women living with the condition.
If you’ve been affected by miscarriage, the Miscarriage Association has information that might be able to help.