Woman Says She Was Called Out by Family After She Didn’t Attend Sister's Baby Shower Following Her Own Miscarriage

The woman, 29, said in a Reddit post that she "couldn’t bear to see my sister pregnant"

A woman who didn't attend her sister's baby shower after a miscarriage is facing scrutiny from members of their family.

In a post on Reddit's "Am I the A------" forum, the woman, 29, wrote that she and her husband, also 29, found out they were expecting in March, weeks after the poster's sister also found out she was pregnant.

"We were all thrilled, imagining our kids growing up as best friends," the woman wrote before detailing that she and her husband ended up losing their baby at 16 weeks — marking their second miscarriage that year.

Detailing that the loss "hit us hard," the woman said she "struggled deeply, even having dark thoughts about ending my life" and strayed from family, as she "couldn’t bear to see my sister pregnant."

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Months later, the Redditor's sister's wedding was approaching, as well as her baby shower and gender reveal.

According to the woman, she informed her family that she would be in attendance at the wedding, but she would not be able to attend the next events, given that "being around pregnant women is a trigger for me, reminding me of our loss."

Though she said that her family "seemed to understand but hoped we might change our minds," the woman further explained that the family celebrated together on the wedding day, but she was met with an angry message from another sibling shortly after.

"The next morning, my older sister (not the pregnant one) sent me a long message, essentially saying, 'Your sister was there for you during your milestones, why can’t you be there for her now? Focus your energy on her and move on already,' " she wrote, adding that she was "devastated" and her husband "was furious at the insensitivity and realized this was how the whole family felt."

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After asking the Reddit forum if she was in the wrong for her decision, many sided with the woman, understanding her struggle and grief.

"Two miscarriages can feel absolutely devastating and people don’t understand until they’ve experienced it — how much it crushes your spirit, your innocence and your future," one commenter wrote, as another added, "Your reaction is perfectly normal under the circumstances and it is a shame that your family [is] criticizing you when they should be supporting you and your husband."

Others, meanwhile, questioned the woman about her decisions and how long they would last. "Realistically, how do you think this is going to work…are you going to ignore the baby when it comes? Never want to hear about them? Never go to family functions because someone else is pregnant?" one user wrote.

"Life goes on. You can be sad AND be there for your sister. If you ever have a baby, you’re going to want everyone to gush over you. You’re going to want to talk about it and share your joy," they added.